My 2nd Confession

Knowing what you have gone through, makes me understand your fear about this..about us.

wishing everything will be back as the way It is,everything's fine.

I have the same fear also.
i don't have tremendous record in relationship. The last hit me hard made me wounded so bad,destroy my hope and trust about a relationship.

And then after several years,i found you, and start thinking maybe i can make it.maybe this time will be different.

Still deep inside i'm afraid to ruin this,i have worried that i will screw things up with you coz i am a Phd in it.

I'm afraid to get hurt again,afraid to let my self blown away and left behind, afraid i'm running on the same circle.afraid that somehow i'll hurt you.
i'm really affraid...

But i know if i don't fight now, i'll have my regret.

i know if i don't open my self&let you see inside of me,you won't be open.

You're precious...too precious to be left because of my fear.

I enjoyed each time i'm with you.looking at those sparkling eyes,

hearing your laugh,

be beside you...

Those have light up my days.give a great feeling inside,

make me want to fly and smile to the world. I'm greatfull each time i remember you.

That why i'll stand stiil.

that's why i'll fight till the end, coz it's worth to try.

Better to fight and die than hide but live.

I will make my shoot,try as hard as i could,and pray for the best.

I don't know if 'love' is the right word right now,but for sure i know that i do really care about you.

you're not just ordinary, you're special.

you're not just anybody to me,you are somebody.

somebody really important.

i understand if you need moment to figure this out.

this's not easy,coz this means open your life,and let some one see it through,go above other's judgment.

I'll wait.

I'll wait untill you make up your mind.

Just let me know when you're ready.

Meanwhile,i'll stand still and fight,hoping you'll be there with me and fight with me.

I don't know where this journey ends,where this relationship will be...

but i'll give a try...

because you're precious for me.