Tuesday, March 13, 2012

The BIG Clown is in the house!


Sudut ruangan benteng batu, 13 Maret 2012, 00:12.

Tiga menit lagi sebelum pria tua gendut berkumis dalam balutan jubah merah meneriakkan namanya dan memanggilnya ke tengah panggung. Tiga menit lagi sebelum panas sinar lampu spotlight dan ratusan blitz kamera menghujaninya. Tiga menit lagi sebelum kembali namanya terukir megah di ingatan para penonton. Dia adalah bintang pertunjukan di sirkus itu. Sudah 20 tahun lebih dia menjalaninya. Dan tidak pernah sekalipun dia gagal membuat ratusan mata terpingkal-pingkal melihat ulahnya. Dia selalu mendapatkan standing ovation sebagai tanda penghormatan atas kemampuannya menghibur. Namanya menjadi buah bibir setiap kali sirkus itu mampir di sebuah kota. Namanya dielu-elukan.Sang Badut Sirkus. Bukan badut sembarangan. Bukan badut kacangan. Bukan badut rendahan. Tapi dialah sang badut Sirkus.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

A Simple Note for Sunshine (not because Valentine's day :) )



How did it start?I don't know.
Maybe because of those sparkling eyes. 
Maybe because of that sweet smile. 
Maybe because of those goofy laugh. 
Maybe because of your cheerfulness. 

Maybe because of a simple hi.
Maybe because of those emails. 
Maybe because of some silly stories we shared together. 
Maybe because we complete each other sentence. 
Maybe because of our "absurd" questions and answers. 
Maybe because at a short time you able to know me better than most people do. 
Maybe because sometimes with you I don't have to say a word and you know exactly my thought. 
Maybe because somehow you complete the missing pieces. 
Maybe because you make me feel different. 
Maybe because you are simply you.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Reality Start Kicks in and Kills


It takes moments to digest what is happening.
It takes hours and reality starts kicks in and kills.
My brain stops freezing and thoughts jump out of control.
That’s when tears start falling inside and hurts transform to pain
That’s when big deep dark hole appears and sucks hope, pray, and wishes.
Half part of me missing
Half breathe of me dying
Deep diving in agony.
And I break down into pieces.
Left alone in the dark stuck in words, breathless, and fading
It is hurt…so damn freaking hurt.


I don't want to lose my Sunshine...

Monday, February 6, 2012

My 6 Best Moment With You Sun Shine So Far and still Continue...


Hei Sunshine, 
I’m trying to do something impossible here. What is it? No, it’s not moving a mountain, building a tower in a day, or stuff like that or buying you your dream bed set (it’s not impossible at all) :)  Well, I’m trying to list 6 best moments I’ve had so far with you. Why is it impossible? Simply because I have tons of it and now I have to choose and highlight only 6!

So after several days thinking and contemplating, here is the list – not in particular order… btw, I’m doing little cheating here… You’ll see it :)

1.      Late Night Call.
I Love the time when we have our night call for hours talking about everything; literally everything. Who the heck on earth could combine stories about today activity, works, friends, and poop in one conversation?! :D Why do I love it? Because I could get to know you better each day about what  you do, how you think or feel of something, your life stories, what important for you in life, etc.  So far sunshine, you’ve blown me away. Another reason is because it’s a great way to end up my day; doing something I love and talk to someone who can simply relieve me for all day burden by simply being you and my self. :)

2.      Hugging you moment
No doubt this would be in the list! Time stops when this happened. I love the way you smell. Those strawberry champagne scents is just marvelous! :)  But it’s not only about the smell. It’s about feeling being loved and a way for me to express my protection and care for you :) I love when you hug me tight like you will break all my bones and the way you lay your head on my shoulder. Sometimes it’s hard for me to tell you what I’m thinking or feeling inside, and by hugging you I hope all those emotion transferred to you so you could understand it :) Remember once you asked me am I addicted to your hug? Well yes I think I am, because my love for you is adding more and more each day. :)
  
3.      Meal together time
Either it’s at pantry or we have our meal at some restaurants it always a moment that I love. Do you remember that I often give you the first piece of our meal? I don’t do that to every one. the first piece of meal is the best one and it only deserve for a precious person, you :)
I don’t really care of what I’m eating. I don’t care if it tastes good or not. What I do care about is it is with you :) Having lunch with you at pantry is a precious moment to share stories from morning to mid day and also a moment when I can have more time to see you and listen to you.   Oh one more thing; I love when you pick a food for me cause it makes me feel loved :) and having your mom’s cook, for me it’s a privilege :)

4.      Each time having your message
Do you know how often I look at my phone just to find a blinking icon on the screen? I guess now I’m more attached to my phone than ever before; it’s your fault :) Do you know that you can easily fly me away just by send a morning message, or simply calling “kokoooooo…” via BBM, or saying take care when I’m on my way to work or home. I always love seeing my outlook blinking because an email from you. I love hearing “ping” sound of my phone because BBM from you. I think my speed can be compared to ninja when I’m picking up my phone each time I receive call from you :)

5.      Late night working
Maybe this sounds weird, but now I’m looking forward to Monday till Friday to go to work and wishing that I have tons things to do and so do you, so we could work late together :) well in fact though my work is done, I’ll find anything i can do do so i would have my overtime with you.. silly yah? :) by doing late night working I would have more time to spend with you, even though I just sit beside you while you’re working, it does feel good :) Taking you home  after your late night working is a fun thing I’m waiting for; because it give a sense of feeling that I responsible for you :)

6.      Dimsum with my family  
Well, this one just happened yesterday morning. It was a priceless picture perfect seeing you interact with my family and Rafa :) you're doing fantastic and you’re great with my family; they adore you! :) after that breakfast you become the topic trend in my family :) don’t you know at that breakfast I prayed in my heart that this picture perfect will last forever :)


So far that's the best six i can include in the list....Do you realize how i cheat on list above?! Yups most of the list is basicaly our daily activity together :) For me every second i've spent with you is precious. and i pray that all those list is the begining of something that will last forever. xoxo :)   

Friday, January 20, 2012

Jam Pasir



Sedikit demi sedikit butiran itu mulai jatuh mengosongi jam pasir.
Tinggal sebentar lagi.
Tinggal sedikit lagi.
Mungkin lebih baik aku pecahkan jam pasir ini dan mengutuki setiap butir yang bergulir.
Mungkin lebih baik aku tinggalkan saja dan persetan dengan semuanya.
Tapi tidak mungkin.
Aku tidak bisa.

Itu bukan aku.
Ini terlalu berharga untuk ditinggalkan.
Terlalu penting untuk dihempaskan.
Aku lebih memilih jadi orang bodoh naif yang berjuang sampai akhir dan kalah,
daripada menjadi pengecut.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

NEXT TO YOU - Chris Brown (Another song for You Sunshine! :) )


  • NEXT TO YOU

    You’ve got that smile,
    That only heaven can make.
    I pray to God everyday,
    That you keep that smile.

    You are my dream,
    There’s not a thing I won’t do.
    I'd give my life up for you,
    'Cause you are my dream.

    And baby, everything that I have is yours,
    You will never go cold or hungry.
    I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
    Let you know that you’re always lovely.
    Girl, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now.

    One day when the sky is falling,
    I’ll be standing right next to you,
    Right next to you.
    Nothing will ever come between us,
    I’ll be standing right next to you,
    Right next to you.

    If you had my child,
    You would make my life complete.
    Just to have your eyes on a little me,
    That’d be mine forever.

    And baby, everything that I have is yours
    You will never go cold or hungry
    I’ll be there when you’re insecure
    Let you know that you’re always lovely
    Girl, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now

    One day when the sky is falling,
    I’ll be standing right next to you,
    Right next to you.
    Nothing will ever come between us,
    I’ll be standing right next to you,
    Right next to you.

    We’re made for one another
    Me and you
    And I have no fear
    I know we’ll make it through

    You’ve got that smile,
    That only heaven can make.
    I pray to God everyday,
    To keep you forever.





Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas (a Song for you Sunshine :))

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let it go, 
let it roll right off your shoulder 
don't you know 
the hardest part is over 
let it in, 
let your clarity define you 
in the end 
we will only just remember how it feels