3:21 Am

Jakarta, 23 July 2009

It's still 3:21 am, and i already woke up.

Can't get my head to stop thinking or close my eyes. Hope it's just a bad dream but it's reality...

My thought is still wandering "what if...", "should i...", "how could..."

Trying to gather the broken pieces deep inside..

Feel confuse yet so weak...

Feel numb...

Can't decide what to do...

Being rational or emotional... Can i be both?

what if i made a wrong choice...

Will i be able to take a turn?

Will it be too late?

Should i stand and fight?

Should i run away?

Never thought going to feel this way...again..

Never saw this coming..well,actually some how i knew it'll come..but not this fast.

Thought it just a history...stupid things in the past that won't be happened again..and I'm so totally wrong...

People usually come to me asking for solution and advice, but now i can't get one for my damn own...

I'm laying on my bed...speechless..don't know what to do...

Feel so tired and helpless...